I’m becoming terrible at this blogging thing, I know. It’s been
almost two weeks 18 days since I last stopped in to write. (It was “almost two weeks” when I first started this post, ha!) Let’s be honest here, though…I’m okay with the break.
Over the last few months, I’ve mentioned on several occasions that I’ve been debating the continuation of this blog. Should I continue blogging? Should I put a stop to it completely? How often should I blog? What do I want from it? Should I make it private? Should I change the name of it and start anew? Should the name include something about photography and running? Should I change it all? Should I, should I, should I…
…and I really don’t want this blog to be about a constant stream of “should I’s”.
The truth is, I love my blog, but I’ve become incredibly aware of what I don’t want from it. I don’t want to focus on how large my following is becoming (or not becoming). I don’t want to be scrambling to write reviews or campaign posts. I don’t want to be waiting around for campaigns I believe in, and even more so, I don’t want to be worried about being grouped in with other blogs that promote products or ideas I don’t believe in. (Important note: I am not in any way pointing fingers – I’m simply stating that I’ve come to learn so much about this (health & fitness) industry and I have been able to form my opinions and view based around my knowledge. We’ll just leave it at that.) Even more than becoming aware of what I don’t want, I’ve become very much aware of how much I’ve loved being disconnected from my blog. My life is full, and I was beginning to feel as though I was becoming too involved in my blog and its corresponding social media, for the wrong reasons, and less involved in presence.
So while I was debating what to do, many of you know I was also waiting on some important news that would help me figure things out. The news has come, and as many of you already know from Facebook, I’ve been accepted into grad school! I’m feeling incredibly blessed today, and every day, that a lay-off turned into an opportunity to improve my career and become more involved in my family, and life just continues to fall into place. I’m blessed beyond words. I really am.
I started classes last Monday, which means my free time just got
a little a lot less abundant. So, of course, the blog is one of the first things to go. However, I’m not sure I want to let it go…completely. My blog has been a journal for me – an outlet for frustration, a record of successes and comebacks, and a source that has brought a number of wonderful friendships into my life. I’m really not ready to let it go completely, but I am ready for it to change. I’m ready to spend less time here, but in the time that I do spend writing here, I want my posts to be more robust. Less about every day scrounging for post topics. More about my thoughts, what I’m learning, and how I’m doing on my very own journey. My journey hasn’t stopped, and I know that even after I’ve reached my goals, being healthy in the midst of an unhealthy society can be tough. (If it weren’t, we wouldn’t be seeing the problems we see now would we?)
My goals involve a lot of planning. Two kids in two different schools, starting and ending at two different times of day, being in grad school myself, workouts, meals, my mom-jobs, and a slew of other things…there’s always so much to do, and I believe I’ve got my schedule down well enough to start blogging again. I’ve got free time on Tuesdays and Thursdays, from the moment my oldest gets on the bus at 6:30AM until my youngest gets up for school at 7:30AM, to write – on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, it’s spent working out. I spend the quiet parts of my day studying and the other parts of my day playing and being a mom. On Tuesdays and Thursdays, my husband and I go for a run together. I’m disconnected (aside from photo sharing) on the weekends. I’ve found myself loving every bit of this new routine. It’s productive, keeps my head above water, and I feel more energetic.
I’m looking forward to focusing on it being a blog, rather than a “job”, and I’m looking forward to new content and less “have to’s” and “should I’s”. You’ll see more perspective and read more on my love of nutrition and less of the other stuff. I’ll write about the products I love, but I won’t be a “selling my space” to just anyone – only what I, on a personal level, believe in. Which reminds me, I need to update my about page with a list of things you won’t find here. So much of a “what I don’t stand for” type post is swirling around in my head lately.
So while I won’t be blogging as much, I think this new “relationship” with blogging will be refreshing. For me and for you, my friends. Happy Tuesday!